Jennifer Lopez Admitted Her Biggest Fear Drove Her Life
Jennifer Lopez has been famous for much of her life, her success driven by her relentless work ethic and, she admitted, a bit of fear. While she thinks of herself as a courageous performer, she said there are things that frighten her. One of her biggest fears has been a major motivating factor in her work since she first rose to prominence.
Jennifer Lopez said fear drove her life
Lopez exudes confidence in every part of her life, but she said there are still many things that worry her.
“I have fear about the weirdest things,” she told Movieline in 1998. “I’ve always had a huge fear of dying or becoming ill.”
She admitted that her biggest fear was a major reason why she wanted to be a performer. She believed that many of her peers shared the same concerns.
“The thing I’m most afraid of, though, is being alone, which I think a lot of performers fear,” she said. “It’s why we seek the limelight — so we’re not alone, we’re adored. We’re loved, so people want to be around us. The fear of being alone drives my life.”
Jennifer Lopez admitted that her success was hard on her love life
When Lopez spoke about her fear of being alone, she was with her first husband, Ojani Noa. She admitted that her level of success put a strain on their relationship.
“I always joke with him, because he’s like, ‘You can see through that dress!’ or ‘Is there going to be a love scene in that next movie? You’re my wife. I don’t want anybody to think of you in that way.’ It’s just a sweet thing,” she said. “But I go, ‘Look, the love scenes, the see-through dresses — all that stuff is good. As long as people like you, they’re going to keep coming to see your movies. Do you want that house in Miami — yes or no?’ I mean, this is what it’s going to be, it’s part of the business.”
She admitted he had a problem with the fact that she was the primary breadwinner. He would have given up their wealth if it meant he could be the one making more.
“I have to say, if you asked him right now, he’d rather have me home washing dishes, with us living in a small apartment, with him making the money rather than me making millions of dollars a year, living in a house that I mostly pay for,” she said. “It’s tough for me to try and show him that even though I make a lot of money, I feel I still need him.”
The couple divorced in 1998 after less than a year of marriage.
She spoke about still believing in love after heartbreak
Lopez has married four times, but she said this has more to do with her unshakeable belief in love than her fear of being alone. She throws herself into her romances without fear.
“I remain an eternal optimist about love. I believe in love, as I told you. It’s still my biggest dream,” she told Vanity Fair after she separated from Marc Anthony, adding, “I am positive — determined to move forward with my life, bring up my babies, and do the best job I can as a mother, entertainer, and person. I now look forward to new challenges. I feel strong.”
Lopez and her fourth husband, Ben Affleck, recently ended their marriage. She reportedly plans to date after their separation.
